Thursday, April 29, 2010

Bye, Bye Birdies

We knew this day was coming, that they would one day leave us.  But, oh SO sad!  The two baby hummingbirds who were growing up outside our upstairs hallway window are in fact, gone.  We have empty nest.


Sure, we're happy they're healthy enough to fly away on their own, but they grew up so fast!  It was like having adorable baby pets we didn't have to take care of.


They were however, as of yesterday, really struggling to fit in that little nest together.  I guess they needed their independence.    




Oh, the memories!




They'd better visit, at least!

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Three Things...

I love about today!


1. I found a really cute bathing suit at Target for $34!  And I only had to try on one!  Which, is good, because most of them were testing my gag reflex.  I enjoy bathing suit shopping about as much as snacking on broken glass, so the triumph (at a bargain no less) is truly insurmountable.  Yay!


2.  Discovered the wonders of Netflix instant streaming via the Wii.  Left me in full awe and gratitude of advancements in technology.  And I got to see the pilot episodes of  X-Files and Weeds.  Double Yay!


3. Learned today that the very funny short film I was in, Gay Baby, won the Best Overall Short Film Award at FilmOut San Diego!  Yay!  Yayy!! Yayyy!!!


How ya gonna top that Thursday?

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

What I Learned...

We all know that unions and tenure make it almost impossible to fire public school teachers and community college professors.  And, I thought I'd heard it all after I heard about the teacher who couldn't stay awake during class, so rather than being fired, was given a teacher's assistant.

Oh, but I really hadn't heard it all...  and I still haven't.  Today a student complained about another teacher to me.  Long story short, the guy tells funny stories in class, but doesn't teach much of anything.  Also farms out to the class to see where he can get discounts from students.  He opens with, "I have a student in Long Beach who works for an airline, so she gets me a discount."  Sounds harmless?  I wish it was...



It turns out this gem has quite the history.  The offenses are endless, from failing students who complained about him, to threatening to fail anyone who didn't sign up for his summer class, but my favorite is how he taught a Saturday class and convinced the small number of students that he wasn't being paid to teach, but he was there to tutor them, for a fee.  He was busted by a custodian when a student confided in him, "The teacher is expensive, but I guess it's worth it."

Second favorite story, another teacher, same school was teaching two night classes at two different schools simultaneously.  He would go to one location, set it up, leave, drive to the other, back and forth. Called in sick a lot.



Sad?  Amusing?  More than anything, you CANNOT make this stuff up!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Down to 2?!

When I got the callback for the lead in the hilarious web series, Nanny Interviews, the director said in the email, it's down to you and one other actress.  I thought, Ugh!  Why did you have to tell me that?!  Pressure is on! And of course I ran into the awkward situation of seeing the beautiful other actress when I arrived a bit early.  Turned out to be the lovely and talented Jill Saunders, who I didn't remember at the time, but had actually known through mutual contacts years ago.

Today at my favorite (ahem) place to audition, CAZT, I had a callback, where I noticed only one other actress had been called back for the role I was auditioning for.  Here we are again!

Not exactly... the 
casting director came out to talk to some of the actors about the wait and to answer questions, and turns out the other actress was here for her first call!

What do I do with this information?  I'm interpreting, "We like you Beth, but we're not fully ready to commit."  OK, me no likey that line of thinking.

I think I'll just ignore it and take my "I got this" energy in the room!



Did I break my CAZT curse of NEVER booking at that place?  Stay tuned...

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Oh Nature!

Not a camper, that's no secret.  Do I love the outdoors?  From time to time, for a controlled period of time, sure.  As long as there's bug spray, sunscreen, plumbing and ample opportunity to go inside when I've had enough.

But who could resist falling completely in love with what's just two feet away from my upstairs hallway window? 

These two baby hummingbirds were discovered by my boyfriend Phil at the beginning of last week and quickly became our central point of attention.  For days, our regular check-ups on the babies were the same.  The two of them snuggled in their nest, no momma in sight.  Beginning to fear they'd been abandoned and would surely starve,  we were in awe and relief to later catch glimpses of the mother feeding her hungry babies.

Truly amazing and ridiculously adorable.  



Alas, those two are growing fast and won't be there forever.  Who knew we were going to be experiencing empty nest syndrome so soon!  

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Dream On?


 I remember my dreams just about every night.  There are lots of theories on what dreams mean, but a common theory about why we dream, is that dreams are the subconscious mind at work, pointing out to us something our conscious minds are not paying attention to.


Let's say for the moment, that's true.  Then why did I dream last night that Angelina Jolie had died due to complications in her latest pregnancy, and that I ran into Katie Couric having lunch with Barbara Walters at a Beverly Hills High School restaurant, where she was a complete bitch to me, because I called her Katie.


What exactly or inexactly was my subconscious trying to tell me?  Famous women often end up bitchy or dead?  So, careful what I wish for?  I have to believe my subconscious mind isn't that stupid.  But I often wake up feeling simply troubled and sometimes shaken by these jumbled, complicated storylines that I can't begin to interpret and are not... restful at all.


Though my boyfriend Phil occasionally calls out something in his sleep like, "Only when I'm golfing!" (though he doesn't golf) or an annoyed, "Oh, great!" He never remembers his dreams, which is something I've grown to envy.  


Why can't my mind just shut off and let me rest when I sleep?  I don't want to work out anything in brain while I'm snoring the night away.  Can't I just deal with it all when I wake up?

Friday, April 23, 2010

I Should Be Doing This, I Should...

How many times a  week do I find myself saying these things, out loud?  There are oh so many things that I should be doing that I'm just not.  First and foremost, taking advantage of everything our wonderful union, SAG has to offer.  I pay my dues, why not use more of the resources they cover? 


And I'm sure AFTRA offers lots too, but I seem to hear much less about those opportunities, or perhaps there are simply much less for actors.  SAG however, has weekly events that I absolutely should be participating in.  For example, SAG's LifeRaft Live Stream events.  Next one is this Tuesday ,http://www.sagfoundation.org/liferaft/livestream.  What can I tell you about these events?  Nothing!  I've never tuned into one.


And then there's iActor.  It's not new, and yet still I have never taken advantage of it.  The Casting Access Project?  SAG members can take FREE workshops with casting directors.  Got the registration packet, but never filled it out.  So, never been to the free ones -- but I've PAID to go to other places!  And I'm SO frugal.  What is up with that?


Enough already!  I'm all over SAG!  Starting... tomorrow...

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Grind No More?

Ever since college I've been grinding my teeth in my sleep.  Obviously it's a bad thing.  I've had many root canals and crowns... not fun or cheap.  Plenty of jaw pain, TMJ, and just soreness.  But over time, I've come to accept it as just a personality quirk.  Part of who I am in my stressful, busy little life.


So, I finally found a mouthguard that I'll actually keep in my mouth throughout the night.  In the past I've found those hard, plastic ones under my bed, thrown across the room, or simply MIA.  It's by Sleep Right and it's soft and flexible and comfortable.  And yes, it helps.  But according to my dentist, it's not enough.


Apparently from all my grinding and clenching, I actually have bone growing under my tongue on the bottom of my mouth.  


So if I keep it up, I will end up with a tongue hanging out of mouth in 30 years or so.  Beautiful.


The real issue is I need to calm the hell down and stop grinding and clenching my damn teeth.  But how?  Hypnotism?  Muscle relaxants?  Meditation?  


Thoughts????

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

How Did That Pilot Land?

Last Friday I learned that a friend of mine and his writing partner sold their pilot to a studio.  Yippee!!  Once it's ordered, they will be producers and writers on the series, which I'm certain will be a hit!  The big question, HOW did you do it?  Did your agent pitch it?  Nope, no agent.  Did you have an inside contact already established? Not at all.  Had you sold one before?  Pitched one before?  No, first time.  Did you film a presentation pilot to pitch it?  Oh, no.  WHAT?  Well, then how, dammit?  They joined a book club.  After the meeting, they chatted with a group member who happened to be awfully connected (to say the least), they  mentioned they were writers, and group member suggested they send over some of their work.  And rolling the ball went.

This got me thinking (and yes, it hurt).  What about all those pilot presentations folks film independently?  Do they work?  After giving it a long thought (really hurt) I couldn't think of a single independently produced pilot presentation I knew of, that had ever become a series.  I came up with one that was bought by a studio, but was never ordered as a series.

So wait, then why do people make presentation pilots?  Who gave them the idea?  What gave them the idea that it's a good idea, with so little evidence that it works?  Is presentation pilot-making some kind of epidemic, full of false hope, infecting creative, ambitious writers and producers?

And the verbal pitch-only approach sort of makes sense.  We always think the book was better than the movie... and it usually was.  But why do we think that?  Maybe it's because we have an idea in our minds that is personal to us about who the characters are, what their surroundings look like, etc.  When what we have in our minds clashes with what we see on screen, there's a disconnect.  It's all wrong!  That's not at all the people and story I had in my brain!  I don't like it!!!



Well, when you pitch a project and other people get to just listen to your ideas, and picture it in their own minds, it becomes their own.  Perhaps it's much easier to say yes to something, and to like it more and more when you get to picture it for yourself, rather than try to like someone else's vision served up in a mini episode.


Got a great TV show idea?  Maybe you don't need to get an agent, schmooze your pants off, or spend your time and money shooting a presentation pilot.  Maybe just join a book club.







Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Meanbook

What is it about Facebook that makes people engage in, well... fights?  Sure lots of the "updates," "comments" and "likes" are funny, fun, supportive, even loving and inspiring at times.  But then there's the rest of the time, when they're bitter, snarky, rude, defensive, antagonistic, and just plain mean.  The blood gets boiling, and it seems what motivates people to express their opinions on the pages of "friends" on Facebook, is the mean, angry stuff.  People often seem more ready to attack an idea or thought that does not set well with them than to simply, say something nice.


Sure, political opinions spark debate, issues like Prop 8 bring out the best and worst in people, but lately I've noticed really unnecessary arguments and randomly mean comments sprouting up.  A film critic making fat jokes about Gabourey Sidibe, a talent manager posting a nasty quote by an actress, I could go on and on!  YUCK!  


I've had at least two friends quit Facebook because they couldn't handle the constant debates they found themselves in.  It's exhausting.  


And it's hard for loud-mouthed, outspoken me, to keep my comments to myself. but I have to!  Now, when I see something I don't like, I just ignore it, or better yet "hide" the "friend" that posted it.  Nothing negative deserves my energy!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Dammit Damages! Don't Go!

It's no secret I love TV, but it's not often that I urge people to watch a show.  Damages" on FX starring Glenn Close, made me do just that.  SUCH a great storyline, incredible acting, a reason to look forward to Monday.  But now it could be gone... forever!


Tonight was the third season finale, but word on the evil entertainment street is that tonight may very well have been the series finale.  Ratings have dropped for reasons I couldn't begin to try to explain.  I want nothing more than to see what tough, New York attorney, Patty Hewes has in store for us next.  But will we ever know??  If Sony has their way - yes!  They are making every effort to find a buyer such as DirecTV to help pay for the expensive production costs, but with the ratings what they are it's a tough sell.  


So... we have a slim chance at winning this case.  


How soon can we file an appeal? 

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Reel Proof

 This past Friday night was the world premiere of Gay Baby from Wonder Entertainment.  I was so thrilled to have been cast in this short, alongside such amazing and certainly seasoned actors, such as Larry Sullivan ( CSI, 24, the Secret Life of the American Teenager) and Richard Riehle (Grounded for Life, Office Space,  too damn much to write!).  A wonderful experience, yes.  But one I almost didn't get.


It wasn't until Friday night at the FilmOut After Party that I learned, there had been callbacks for my role... which I was not invited to.  WHAT??  Huh??  You didn't fall in love with me instantly at the first audition?  The short answer is, no.  Writer/director Kevin Kelly told me, "We liked you... but we just weren't sure."  Well, after calling back a slew of actresses for the role of Maggie, (some who were in real life actually quite pregnant) they still weren't sure.  Kelly said, "We liked a lot of them, but we just wanted someone... funnier."  Casting director Damian Pelliccione suggested, "Take another look at Beth Shea."  Pelliccione had cast me only months before in his project, The Biggestwannabe.com, so luckily he was a fan.   


Kelly searched me on youtube, saw my reel and said, "That's it.  That's who we want."  


So, the story here is, my reel, not my audition, absolutely got me the part.  A clip of me slapping my new husband across the face at our wedding reception, sealed the deal.  


Reel good to know!



Friday, April 16, 2010

Gay Baby Meets the World!


 Tonight is a very exciting night for everyone involved in making the very funny and wonderfully-executed  short film, Gay Baby.  Tonight it will world premiere at FilmOut Film Festival in San Diego!  

Produced by Wonder Entertainment and directed by Kevin Kelly, Gay Baby is the story of two expectant parents who get some most unexpected news at the doctor's about their unborn, fabulous son.  Starring Larry Sullivan, Tye Olson, myself, and Richard RiehleGay Baby explores how one father comes to terms with the news, with a little help along the way!  
And... the festival programmer was kind enough to pay for my 
hotel accommodations tonight.  Delightful!

Gay Baby was also recently accepted into NewFest 2010 in 
New York City, Frameline 34 in San Francisco, and the 12th Annual Miami Gay & Lesbian Film Festival.  Woo-hoo!



Thursday, April 15, 2010

Ah, Tax Day!

Happy Tax Day Everyone!  And much more importantly, Happy Birthday to my mother Barbara... who was born on Tax Day.  


This April 15th, whether it's an extension on your mind, an audit, or the foreseeing of tax debt piling up, just remember this, it will all happen again one year from now!  


Or maybe you just have Larry King's eighth divorce on your mind.  Which is understandable.  Truly mind-boggling.  Which is stranger, that he decided he found "the one" eight times, or that eight different women agreed to, at least the public perception, of intimacy with that little creature?


Well, I filed long ago, only because I really wanted my refund which I'm still patiently waiting for.  Much like I'm still patiently waiting for the world to become disinterested in Kate Gosselin.  


Although, Phil and I did make a pretty good Jon and Kate last Halloween.  But still, yucks on them both!  And taxes!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Watts the Deal?

 I teach ESL (English as a Second Language) at a community college, but I have a couple of classes, off-campus in community-based centers.  This always has its own set of issues or obstacles.  You're a mobile teacher going into areas where there's need and that's usually not the nicest of neighborhoods.  I teach at two offsite facilities, both in Watts (an area sadly famous for all the wrong reasons).  And the two facilities, though just blocks apart, couldn't be more different.


One is called Kedren Head Start.  Kedren has several other locations and facilities around Los Angeles, providing an array of services to the community from mental health services to nutrition and early childhood education.  The staff at Kedren Head Start couldn't be friendlier, more helpful, or more grateful to have us there.  They fall down over themselves trying to accommodate and anticipate any and all needs to improve and enhance the education experience for the students and teachers.


Part of my class is distance learning, which means the students take home DVDs and books to study in their free time and/or with friends or family members.  We watch part of the video in class every week, and the staff at Kedren always has a laptop with speakers, a projector, and projector screen set up and ready to go for me.  One morning the projector screen was already in use, so I walked in the classroom to find the project coordinator and two other staff members working quickly, adhering large pieces of white paper to the board so I could use that in its place.  These are people and an institution that really care about their community members and honor the importance of education.


My other offsite location in Watts is at the Coalition of Mental Health Professionals.  They also provide community services in the areas of conflict resolution, domestic violence, and other counseling services.    And while I can't speak on behalf of them, their actions towards me as a teacher, certainly have not been conducive with a stress on providing a positive and effective learning environment for the students I teach.  


They requested to have ESL classes taught there at the beginning of the year, but I would have to guess that their intentions were not solely focused on serving the immigrant population of the community.  Their overall attitude towards me as a teacher is far less than grateful.  They act as if they're doing me some kind of favor, rather than the other way around.  Here is an email I sent to my supervisor after class today:



When I arrived at CMHP this morning, the room had been split in half with dividers.  When I asked the staff member if we could move them, she got angry and told me to stop complaining.

The space is pretty cramped now and the other side of the room was not being used during my class time.  I tried to get creative providing workspace, but we were maxed out on space at 19 students.  Some students were using file cabinets against the wall as desks because there isn't enough room to allow another table to our side.  Some of the students at the back of the room couldn't see the board.  I tried moving it closer, but the room is now too narrow to put it anywhere else and the board itself is not big.

Unfortunately, that program literally now has nowhere to grow.

Thanks,
Beth

This is sad, unnecessary, unacceptable, and difficult to understand.  The worst part is, my employer is using their limited resources in a place where we seem to be unwanted, when there are a variety of other offsite locations that would and will welcome and embrace our services.

The tragedy here is the students.  There is a need in that community that isn't being honored.  

And it pisses me off.


Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Walk in Those? Heel No!

 Today I wore a skirt and heels to an audition.  And the role certainly didn't require it.  I was playing a waitress, so I barely looked at the script.  Why?  Before I hung up my apron for good, I had more than 13 years experience slinging food and drink for tips.  I got this.


But what's up with the get-up?  It was a snooty, upscale waiter, but still... a skirt?  And heels?  I looked at those heels and my sore feet rather disapprovingly when I got home.  Three inches?  Get off my feet!  That seemed excessive.  But... haven't I heard about taller shoes lately?  Much taller?  Like, five and six-inch heels?  That's insane!  Right?


So what's up with the tall shoes these days?  Well according to experts, shoe height is at an all-time high.  And who is to blame?  Apparently Lehman Brothers and Bear Stearns.  Yep!  Thought is, that the recession is driving escapism.  Thus, women are towering!  Lady Gaga escaped more than anyone, when she strutted her stuff in 12-inch heels for her "Bad Romance" video.


Yikes!  Sure, heels make women feel taller, thinner, more stylish and sophisticated, but at the cost of pain, stress fractures and safety hazards galore?  


I applaud being fashion-forward, but three inches is my limit.  I'm putting my foot down.  In a flip-flop.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Actor in Waiting

  If you're an actor in LA, you've probably been late to an audition before.  And 9 times out of 10, that's no big deal, because when you get there, traffic-weary, possibly a little sweaty and frustrated, they're running 20 minutes to an hour behind schedule, so you're playing that hurry up and wait game.  Which is frustrating, but it's better than showing up 5 minutes late, expecting the norm, when the casting assistant tells you, as you sign in, "We just called your agent." Ugh!  


And then there's the other end of the spectrum... getting there early.  Sometimes that's unavoidable if you're coming from a long distance.  Not stressful, but presents its own issues  What do you do?  Head inside to see if they'll see you early?  What if they haven't started your role yet and they get annoyed?  Wait in your car and meditate?  Going inside to wait seems logical, until you remember that weird "actors in the waiting room" dynamic.  Car seems much more comfortable.  Go for a walk?  Call a friend?  Find a quiet spot and beat the lines to death?  Again?


Well, today I decided to head on in early and just see what happens.  Turning the corner I see a guy outside the casting office throwing air punches and karate kicks.  What?  Really?  Is Keifer Sutherland auditioning for this?  I headed back to my car.  Too weird even for me.  A few minutes later I decided 30 minutes early was not crazy early, so I headed in.  Karate guy was on the floor doing twisting yoga poses.  Gave me the polite head nod "hello" as I walked by him to sign in.  


Oh actors!  Who knows?  Maybe I'm the biggest weirdo who doesn't have some pre-audition ritual.  


Karate, huh?  Hmm... 

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Lucky

Some people in your life are just indispensable.  No, I don't mean, you couldn't bear to defriend them on Facebook. I mean they serve an important purpose in your life, that you might even from time to time, take for granted.  But truly, you can't imagine life without them.  


Your best friend who listens to you, counsels you, tells you the truth, even when you don't want to hear it, but need to.  The mom or mother figure in your life, who always remembers your birthday and always wants to take care of you and always forgives you.   The neighbor or friend who always takes in your mail or takes care of your pet when you're out of town.  Your friends you can always count on for support, advice, a laugh, and good memory-making material.  And if you're really lucky, the special someone very close to you, who understands you, puts up with you, and loves you just the way you are.  If you have all of these, you are incredibly lucky.  And you certainly don't need Facebook.


And why am I so sappy and nostalgic on a Sunday night?  I have all of those people and Bailey.  Just realizing how incredibly lucky I am.  


Have a great week everyone!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Couchless Fun

If you have a Wii and you like to workout... or if you have a Wii and hate to workout, might I suggest...  EA Sports Active!  I got this as an anniversary gift from my boyfriend last year and I LOVE IT!!    



Fair enough, I don't have the Wii Fit, nor have I ever used one, so I can't compare the two, but I love working out with EA Sports Active.  It has features that let you set goals, track progress, etc., but I honestly don't use them.  I just love how it's actually, quite fun.  


Most people have a fairly regular workout regimen.  What I do to keep it from becoming mundane and dreadful, is switch it up often.  In a week, I usually do Tracy Anderson two days, run one day, pilates or yoga two days and EA Sports Active at least one day.    

You can custom make the workout that you want.  Mine always involve basketball, tennis, and boxing.  There's also running, jumping and toning with a resistance band.  Is it perfect?  Well, no.  One annoying thing is having to stick the nunchuck in your leg band for some of the exercises.  Sometimes it pops out, or you don't have enough time between exercises to properly secure it.  That's a bummer, but still an overall fun way to get some exercise.


Mmm, getting off the couch now might be a good idea right about now.  Happy Saturday!

Friday, April 9, 2010

Bailey Says...

  A lot.  And while I can tell  pretty clearly when he wants something, when he's angry, stressed out, wants to play, or go outside, I certainly don't think I could translate for him.  Wouldn't you know, a company in Japan says they can!  And they've been selling their dog translation device since 2002!  What??  Did I hear about this and assume it was a joke?  Probably.


The Japan Ringing Tone Laboratory in Tokyo developed "Bowlingual" to translate dog barks into human language.  It comes with a handset and a microphone you attach to your dog's collar and claims to be able to analyse emotions ranging from joy to frustration to sadness, and says things like, "Play with me!"  


Cool!  Or crap?  Pretty sure I already know when my dog is feeling those ways or wants to play.  And $79.99? I wouldn't go so far as to call it a gadget, but maybe a fun, over-priced toy for kids.


But translating your dog's barks isn't all that The Japan Ringing Tone Laboratory claims to be capable of.  Looking for love?  They've got a ringtone you can download to attract members of the opposite sex.  And just in time for allergy season, they've released a ringtone that claims to cure hayfever.  Yep, apparently the ringtone releases waves that shake out pollen stuck in the user's nose.


Got a problem?  The Japan Ringing Tone Laboratory claims to have an answer.  Other therapeutic ringtones help you lose weight, digest food, quit smoking and relieve shoulder pain.  


Should we buy into this??  It's Japanese for goodness sakes!  They gave us sushi, Kawasaki, Toyota!  Oh yeah... poor Toyota. 


Anything they could do to make my phone ring?  Preferably with booking news?  That would be nice!

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Ful-Phil'd

What's better than a wonderful someone in your life?  How about a wonderful someone who makes you wonderful dinners, is an excellent dog father, and does a darn god job of administrating your Facebook fan page?  


Got one of those at home?  If not, start looking, because you're seriously missing out.


Today I am full of gratitude for the man in my life.  Thank you Phil for all your wonderfulness.  Don't screw it up.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Nice

 How nice is it when people are nice?  


Sounds so simple, but if you've ever been an actor at an audition and felt unwelcomed, dismissed, or even... a little, (ahem) abused at a casting office, you know just how crappy that feels.  You take the time to prepare, drive for what could be two hours in traffic (yes, one way!), normally struggle to find parking, and then usually spend some time waiting among other actors to be called in.  Who wants to do all that to be given little or no direction and one take?  Upsetting?  Yes!  Necessary?  No!


At an audition yesterday I was taken by the patience, positive energy, and just plain kindness of the session directors.  They took the time to make sure I understood everything and got a great take.  I left thinking, wow!  It should ALWAYS  be like that!  That's an office that can say, "We love actors!" and actually mean it!  And what do you know... I had a callback today.  And the clients?  So nice!!  The first thing the director said to me was, "We loved your audition tape.  So great."  What?  A director who wants to give his actors a confidence boost before performing?  Sure, he probably said that to everyone... and that's GREAT!  Such a positive experience. 


Nice.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Mascary No More!

Funny how something so small can make such a huge difference in your life.

I share a strong "waste nothing" mentality with my boyfriend Phil.  When we are forced to throw away tomatoes or leftovers that've gone bad, there's always a moment of sad, shameful mourning at the sight of our loss being tossed in the garbage can.  Then there's a sigh from one or both of us, followed by a "we must do better than this-esque" proclamation.  It's that way of thinking that's kept me wearing the same awful mascara that I hate as mentioned in my post, "Mascary." I was forcing myself to face my bad purchasing decision, that way I'd never let it happen again! 


And then Friday came, and I walked into Sephora and bought... DiorShow.  And the angels of make-up heaven sang!  In tune!  It has made all the difference in my morning routine!  I love putting on mascara again.  And it actually comes off when I want to take it off!  Finally the finishing touch that it should be is back again.  Drawback, I spent $28.00 on mascara.  Ouch!  That's insane!  Could I possibly do this on a regular basis?


Hell yes.  Thank you Lira and Jill!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Can I Have the Number for Facebook Rehab, Please?

  If Tiger and Jesse have to go to rehab for sex, then clearly I need to go for Facebook.  I'm not sure when it went from fun to obsessive, but like any other addiction, when it gets out of control, your world becomes dark and sad, and all you really want is a fix.  For me I hit rock bottom when I decided I should have a fan page.  What I found disturbing and admittedly upsetting, was that people who are my Facebook "friends," even some who requested me and not the other way around, ignored my request to be a "fan."


Why oh why do people take it so seriously?  Why do I?!    Fair enough, I don't really need a fan page.  And I really did just do it for fun.  But oh boy... not fun.  Here's what happened: I "suggested" to all my "friends" that they become a "Fan of Beth Shea" on my fan page.  The next day I logged in and again clicked on "suggest" to see if I'd missed anyone.  And I thought I had... because several people came up not "fuzzy" meaning they were neither already fans nor pending a response to the invitation.  That was weird.  Well, better send them another suggestion... I mean why would anyone bother being my friend if they didn't want to be my fan, right (do you hear the sound of my obsession?)?  And why would anyone take something so silly, so seriously?  Are there limits on how many things or people you can be fans of that I didn't know about?  Or do my "friends" really not all like me enough to be my fans?  IS THAT IT???


Well, let me give you a rundown of "friends" who ignored my request: someone I had just had dinner with a week before, someone I gave a role to in one of my movies, someone who asked me two days before to co-host a project with them, someone who wrote the day before on my page "I miss you so much!," someone I'd gotten a feature film audition for when I was working as a casting assistant, someone I BLOGGED about, the list goes on!!!


So what did I do with these friends?  The only thing that seemed natural and appropriate.  I de-friended them.


And apparently casting directors really don't like to be fans of actors, or at least not fans of me.  All of them ignored my suggestion, with one even sending me a message "NO FAN PAGE REQUESTS."  Um, OK.  Probably inundated with actors trying to self-promote, something always expected of us yet consistently condemned.  


And maybe I'm blowing this out of proportion.  Maybe I don't need professional help, or even to deactivate my FB pages.  Regardless, today is my Facebook Free Day.  Not logging in.  Until midnight.  Yeah, I might need some help.

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter Audition

  First of all, really?  Got the audition through my own submission on LA Casting, where I don't have video to submit, so a little weird to me even to be called in for a film.  No script in advance, red flag #1.  Huge crowd of 20 somethings waiting outside, red flag #2.  Multiple duos of 20 somethings acting out the same scene, so weird to witness and pretty sad in many cases.  Not a red flag just painful.  Sides are not in script format and are not exciting, red flag #3.  So why am I still here?  Well, I left my cozy home on Easter Sunday and drove to Van Nuys (insert puke a little bit in my mouth here... we all know how I fell about the good parts of the valley!) because the breakdown boasted the project is going to Cannes.  I figured if I have to go to Van Nuys to get to Cannes, I suppose I will.


The verdict?  Well if I had to guess, I'd say no one there is going to Cannes anytime soon.  Not an overall terrible experience, though.  They didn't have a reader, so they brought us in two at a time.  Kinda felt like a free acting class where the teacher liked us.  That's always nice.


And what else was I going to do today anyway?  Sit around and eat Easter candy?  Making up for that now!


Happy Easter everyone!!  

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Getting Redy?

So, in my post, "Two Cents, Please!" I asked for your input on what you thought might work for me if I changed up my look.  I actually got far fewer responses than I anticipated, but two of the same stood out to me.  The wonderful Erin Smith and Lira Kellerman both suggested I go Julianne Moore red.


What would that look like on me?  


What about a slightly more subtle approach...









How'd I do this??  If you've never tried this before, it's SO fun!  Go to www.taaz.com and start your makeover!  It's FREE!!!  You can upload a picture, then save the makeover look to your computer. Warning, it just might suck up your whole afternoon!  


What else is awesome about taaz.com?  They give you celebrity hairstyles to choose from, and while "Beth Shea" hair is not yet an option, my friend and actress Erin Cummings is!  I screamed when her hair came up!  How cool is that?  GO ERIN!!!


OK, I'm sending this to my reps to get their input as well...


Thoughts??

Friday, April 2, 2010

Grant Me One Grant, Please?

  On this Good Friday, I have a question for the universe?  How do a couple of funny ladies go about getting a grant to make a funny feature film?

Leigh Hall and myself, started Hall of Shea Productions when we decided to take our goods from stage to screen.  We started with the short film Not in My Family, followed by Love Royale (won "Best of Faux" at the Faux Film Festival 2009, then the 2-part series, Represent, and most recently The Bold and The Fuel Efficient, still in post-production.

We've managed to fund these one to two-day productions with favors, friends, and sad-looking savings accounts, but I'm afraid that won't cut it for our first ever feature film endeavor.  

We've got a great script, great cast in mind, all the energy and excitement we thing we'll need... just need some money and guidance.

Thoughts??  

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Look at My Paws!

I'm forever curious about the quality and effectiveness of "As Seen On TV" products.  Sounds great, but does it work?  On his website, http://phil.iwouldusethis.com/,  Phil Han reviewed the  ShamWow, a great product I use and love! But what about the rest of them?


So I have a large, handsome Golden Retriever, Bailey.  I've always lived in apartments which meant LOTS of walks with Bailey!  All those walks on the sidewalk did a good job of filing down his claws, so I never had to worry much about clipping his nails.  A few months ago we moved into a house with a yard (yay!), so we still walk, but not as much.  Result?  Bailey needs a pedicure.  So, I decided to give the "As Seen On TV" product, PediPaws a try.  I bought mine at Bed, Bath, and Beyond.  It was $9.99, but I had a 20% coupon, so a pretty cheap experiment.  The directions strongly encourage first-time users to watch the instructional video before trying it, which I did.


How'd it go?  Just watch!


Overall, worth it in my opinion!  And worth the cookie incentives on Bailey's end!